I’m burned out.
It’s taken me a while to truly understand and acknowledge that, but there’s no ignoring it now. I’m burned out and have been for about a year now.
I’m feeling the same way I did when I took about a two year break from writing a while back. And you know what? Those two years were some of the best of my life. I don’t regret taking a break from writing because I needed it. I had to recharge. I needed to live my life so that I could come back and put those experiences down on the page.
At the moment, I don’t have the luxury of completely cutting out writing like I did back then. There are contracts and promises I have to fulfill first, but it’s past time that I started taking a few things off my extremely full plate.
Another thing it comes down to is this: I don’t currently have any content I want to share on Wattpad.
That’s not to say I don’t have ideas. Believe me, there are so many things I want to write, so many ideas I want to pursue. But at this point, the pressure I put on myself to post new stories and chapters as often as possible has contributed to the way I’m currently feeling.
So I’m taking a break from Wattpad and using that time to focus on and remember why I enjoy writing in the first place, without the added pressure of being expected to update regularly. Because right now, writing feels like some terrible obligation that fills me with dread instead of excitement. I don’t like that.
All of that said, these are the steps I’m going to take to help get myself back on track.