Why I’m Taking a Break from Wattpad

I’m burned out.

It’s taken me a while to truly understand and acknowledge that, but there’s no ignoring it now. I’m burned out and have been for about a year now. 

I’m feeling the same way I did when I took about a two year break from writing a while back. And you know what? Those two years were some of the best of my life. I don’t regret taking a break from writing because I needed it. I had to recharge. I needed to live my life so that I could come back and put those experiences down on the page.

At the moment, I don’t have the luxury of completely cutting out writing like I did back then. There are contracts and promises I have to fulfill first, but it’s past time that I started taking a few things off my extremely full plate.

Another thing it comes down to is this: I don’t currently have any content I want to share on Wattpad. 

That’s not to say I don’t have ideas. Believe me, there are so many things I want to write, so many ideas I want to pursue. But at this point, the pressure I put on myself to post new stories and chapters as often as possible has contributed to the way I’m currently feeling.

So I’m taking a break from Wattpad and using that time to focus on and remember why I enjoy writing in the first place, without the added pressure of being expected to update regularly. Because right now, writing feels like some terrible obligation that fills me with dread instead of excitement. I don’t like that.

All of that said, these are the steps I’m going to take to help get myself back on track.

  • I will no longer be posting stories online before they’re complete. I’ve been writing online for over a decade, following the model of writing a chapter, quickly editing it, and then posting it. But that needs to change for a variety of reasons:
    • I’m tired of certain readers thinking they have a say in what I write. They don’t. You don’t. My work is my own, and while constructive criticism and feedback is welcome, aggressively telling me what to write and how to write it is not. I’ve been dealing with this for a while, but in the past year it’s been truly awful. I’ve been harassed into making decisions that I never would have for my stories, just so I could have some peace. I’m pretty tired of it, and it’s made me feel like I have no ownership of my stories and my characters.
    • It makes editing difficult. If you decide there’s a new detail you want to add to an earlier chapter that primes for something later on in the story, it’s hard to do without taking down the entire thing. I’d rather be able to go back and change things without the hassle of taking the entire story down, or reminding readers to refresh their libraries and go back and reread the changes.
    • I like being able to provide consistent updates. I want everyone to understand how much it pains me when months or even years go by without me managing to post a new chapter. I know it sucks for readers, but it also sucks for the person writing that story, too. By having the full story already written, it’s a lot easier to stick to a schedule and not be stressed about it.
  • I’m going to reduce how often I check my messages and inboxes. As much as I love and appreciate the feedback and kindness so many people show me, there are always those people who have nothing but negative things to say and seem to think I want to hear it. I never know what I’m going to get when I open my inbox on various sites, so the best thing to do is just… not open them. I can’t constantly take everything in because it puts my mental health at risk. Now, I still believe that everyone who takes the time out of their day to send me words of encouragement or just a simple “I like your work!” deserves a reply. And I’ll still reply, I promise—it’s just going to take me a little longer.
  • At some point, I’m taking a month long break and not writing a single word. (Blogging doesn’t count though!) This might be a hard one to do, but I’m going to try my best. Sometimes you have to completely stop writing to remember why you like it so much. Is it hard to get back into it afterwards? Oh heck yeah, it can be. But I’d rather take my chances and give myself an actual break than keep plowing through it all.
  • When I return from that break, I’m only going to focus on the stories and ideas that bring me joy. I’ve declared that 2019 is going to be the year of joy for me, because I’ve spent too long being a Sad B*tch. So I’m only going to work on projects I’m passionate about. Yes, passion waxes and wanes, but if you believe in a project, that’s what gets you through the hard bits.

 

I’m not completely disappearing, I’m just reducing how much I’m going to be around and how much I share. Y’all can’t get rid of me that easily! So this isn’t the end of me or my writing completely. Just consider it the start of a new era.

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24 thoughts on “Why I’m Taking a Break from Wattpad

  1. Simone!!! I’m so happy for you because I know how much stress you’ve been in and sksksk I’m so proud! it’s so tiring and frustrating everyday coming on wattpad and wanting to communicate with your readers only to find negative and rude people filling your stories to the point where the positive ones are hard to find!
    I wish you all the best love and um can’t wait for the blog posts 💓💓

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      1. You really need a break! Such pressure can hurt you! And I surely cannot wait for the blog posts. I, from the bottom of my sincere heart, wish you lots and pots of luck on your break. It’s good to refresh.😊

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  2. Doing what is best for you is ultimately the most important thing. Sending my well wishes and hoping for a joyous 2019. Looking forward to continuing following your journey and your future writing in whatever shape or form! ❤️

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  3. You go girl!! 😁
    I am not a writer even if I like to write. And one of the reason why I never put something on Wattpad was because I wanted to finish it before that. So I support you 100% with your decision.

    P.S. sorry it there are some grammar and spelling mistakes

    Greetings from Serbia 🇷🇸😊

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  4. You absolutely deserve this girl. I’m glad you’re putting yourself first. Good luck with everything. You have my full support. ❤

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  5. once upon a time i took a… five year break? something like this. it was the best thing i could do for myself. i need to immerse myself in life for my own sake, and it turned out to be the best thing for my writing too.

    SO!! i support you, girl ❤

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  6. Simone,

    Sometimes a break is much needed and I’m glad you’re taking one for yourself. I hope you take all the time you need. I don’t really know you but I feel like you’re an outstanding person and very creative. So, with that being said, I’ll be following you no matter what you do lol. Just, go be happy.

    Please take much care and with lots of love.

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  7. Simone,
    Fully support this much needed break! I stumbled upon your series a few months back and have loved your creativity and character development! As a fellow writer, I hear you. I’m new to Wattpad so I’m absorbing your rant as the wisdom of someone who has been at this for a decade and knows when to take a stand. I look forward to your new material whenever and whatever that may be! Enjoy your time away and recharge!
    @katewriteslove

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  8. Simone,
    Your writing, your characters and their development,your stories and you are honestly so inspiring. I actually learnt a lot from your characters and I will wait decades if I have to, just to read new material from you. And this decision u have made, makes me respect you even more, take this much needed break for yourself, we will keep supporting you.
    Much love and take care.

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  9. Dear Simone,
    I really loves your writing; blog & wattpad. And I understand that sometimes we need to take a break even from the things that we love. I wish you an exciting break full of adventure and life. Do what you love & love what you do, joy will follow you. 💖

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  10. SIMONEEE,

    I’ve been following you for years now and YOU ARE MY BIGGEST INSPIRATION. The way you write and connect ideas and… ugh everything is just so AMAZING. Unlike you, I can’t put what I want to say into words but I. LOVE. YOU.
    If I ever achieve something notable in my life, I am dedicating everything to you.
    Take all the time you need sis.

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